Life and death and the fine line in between

You face us with challenges that seem like they are impossible. You let us experience the sweetness of a newborn being born. You let us see the beauty in a rain drop as it hits a puddle or a sunset that makes you breathless. You let people murder and kill each other over greed. You let countries go to war for reasons that sometimes beyond our own reasoning. You let us know that feeling sad and depressed is a normal part of life when things are uncertain for us. You let us feel the sand between our toes, and the sound of the waves crashing on the beach. You let us experience pain and suffering to understand what true love and forgiveness is all about. You have the ability to strip every single thing from someone to teach them how to rebuild what they lost. You give us free will to make choices. Some of those choices can cause major conflict. When we are struggling to find answer, we turn to you looking for guidance. You bring a family that was already close, even closer due to tragic events. You tell us to keep have faith when the really bad things in life happen. The "gut feeling' we get, is you speaking to us on a level that sometimes is hard to understand by many. You dont give up on us and you are around us constantly. In us and through us you continue to love us and guide us.. Some don't believe in you, some are cautious of you, and some depend on you every day. You have been a mystery to many. When our time is up here, you call us to be with you. Sometimes its sooner for people than what they had expected, and sometimes you give someone a second chance. You have blessed my life in many ways and I know you will continue to do so. My faith in you is constant and will always be.

Stop This Runway Car..

Call me an ass or call me honest but there are certain things I will no longer put up with.
I will not make myself available for other people, I am tired of getting walked all over and
I am tired of letting my guard down. For the longest time, I have put others before myself and I am finding out the harsh reality that, we need to look out for ourselves, because in the end, all we have is ourselves. That's selfish but its the truth. I am feeling a little insecure which is never a good thing. I am tired of watching people make the same mistakes over and over again without actually realizing they have an issue. I have learned that its easier to keep people at arms lengths than to let them in completely, maybe that's taking the easy way out. I have learned that people do not want to be honest with themselves, if we were all honest with our selves, we would learn and grow. We would learn to accept our failures in life, but we would also see our accomplishments. Life is hard, its full of challenges that make us want to give up somedays. The hardest thing I have learned in this 25 years of life is that forgiveness is the hardest thing to accomplish. We all have our burdons in life but fail to realize that we are only hurting ourselves when we cant forgive ourselves for our mistakes we have made or we cant forgive people who have hurt is.

Day 17 of 21

I dont care what profession you are in.
21 days of living in hotels gets old.
Changing time zones screws you up
Plain and simple.
I miss my bed.